Wednesday, June 29, 2005
rachel sucks.

ha maybe ky would agree with the title of the entry lol. yeap happy bdae rach . gave her the so called jewellery box today for her present. it was quite nicely painted i must say =D. played around with the hamster scaring the wits out of binghong and rach, taking cuckoo pictures, getting amused by wati, her maid and the ever delightful mugging. of physics. it was entertainment 90% mugging 10%. CT aims are now O O O O . yes. now i don't even think they are attainable anymore.

everyone's talking bout mr choy suddenly. actually its more like just luc mav and clarice. but he's one of the bestest best teachers round..like my pri sch chinese teacher ha..was so guilty that i din go visit her with my class this yr and went choy's house instead.

chem was a total killer. i suspect aj is trying to be singapore's most retained school. maths was already bad enough. hopeless and zero confidence. chem came along and now i'm like " physics tmr. so?" seriously wondered if i should have taken arts instead. was quite shocked when other people announced their shock i chose science over arts. p'raps i just wanted to go with the flow, ha..think someone said this to me. not confident enough to step out of my comfort zone and be just that bit more individualistic and daring. nope . not.

think i blank out alot when i'm alone and not at the com. just sitting or lying somewhere will make me space out and enter the world of random thoughts. everything just flows in and out without me really keeping track of what comes and goes. usually alot of pessimistic and sad stuff gets retained as the dredge though. sticks like oil stains. don't know why, for every happy/exciting/joyous ( yea you get the picture) time, i'll sort of think back and like what if this happens and that. usually results in all the sad stuff. weird. but nah. i'm not schizo and i'm definitely not depressed. think just that me-time is alot more different from me-and-others time.

hate to return to the state of "normalcy" when the 4 day weekend is over. routine all over again. taking back the test papers. the only thing that's keeping me going right now is the hongkong trip next yr and. wanna do so many things. but just not now. restricted by everything. bleah. these 2 yrs will pass by in a flash. then its off to a brand new start.

binghong is a brave boy . haha.

lunz finished ranting at 8:14 PM